35 posts from 2008

man o man vox...it's been xrazy uu noe wat ii have to say that ii think 2008 has had to have been the worse year ever...and that's no understatement!! ive lost kisha.....darryl adn ma motha caught me gettin head in her bed!!!!! ii mena wtf sum1 has been after me and ii wish they would stop...but yea so i reconnected w/ a freind and he been tellin me how sexy ii am and wat he would like to do wit me and im not paying him no mind cuz he commtited and been committed since high school but he's giving me mad G tho ii tell uu so ii really atart entertaining the idea.so bing bang boom plans are in motion for shit to pop off the very next day....adn to ma surprise it really does happen ii mena ii kinda believed him but then ii didnt.soooooo crystal leaves with a friend of hers and ii have ma lil company we chilly reuniting and it feels so good lol then crystal tells me she on her way bac him so ii tke ma friend to the bac we still watching the movie then uu already know he starts and things really start popppin pff so im gettin ga box ii mean its gooood but i knew ii wasnt bout to have the O so he keeps going...his lil determined self by then im gettin a lil reastless jux hopin he's already adn get to the consumating!!!! lol so yea ii heard the door open a couple mins earlier and ii thought crystal had left plus the door was locked(((so ii thought)))))) and in walks ma motha wit her dauhgter eagle spread on the bed....tidd's swinging.........boy in btwn ma legs slurping.....and im liiiiiike OMQQQQQQQQ why me!!!!!!!!! so she tell us to get dressed and he like o this not eem ma 1st time gttin caught and im thinking im really not tryna hear that rite now.he qoes to the bath to wash his face and im puttin clothes bac on then he walks past ma motha and says sorry we had to meet this way ...i laughed silently in ma head lol mind uu all this time crystal is sleepin on the couch unaware of teh magnitude of things thas happenin around her rite now.so me and ma mom had a quic chat but she just want me to change the sheets and leave her alone so ii do then she qoes for a walkm ii quess then ii wake crystal dumn ass up to tell her wat happened............buthtis nt eeem the end of it son

mannnnnnnnn vox its been a min ii dnt eem no where to start wellll im jux gettin ova da flu like shit....crystal had this lil cough 4 a week and ii aint pay no attn to it then BAM ii woke up ma throat was hurtin and ma body was feelin sore but ii hAad to go to silver spring so ii kept on keepin on but on ma way bac home ii was shiverin like shit on the bus and ma whoooole body felt so sore.so i had to call out frm work man those couple a days was torture ii couldnt sleep ii was tossin and turnin cuz ma body hurt and ii still gotta sore throat man thats the last thing to go kermen tole me ii prolly got strep throat....i believe her cuz ma throat still feelin a lil tender and the craxy thing bout is that crystal aint have nuffin but a lil cough and i was ova hea wit full blown aids!!! lol but yea on ma way to work last week ii saw justin kamahunda drivin past and ii was talkin to him and we wa sposed to get up bu that fool has not called or text me as of yet...im so mad at him cuz ii missed dat boy he was bout to drive me to work and everything!!!!!! but yea and i quess marky poo qot ma number from dave cuz he been textin me out the ass these past too days talkin bout he wanna go out and cum ova and shyt .....lol ii be like marky ii luv da shyt outta uu but where did this cum from jordanna is ur bestii llol but its kewl ii missed that fool he's a better friend than dave who NEVER texts me 1st.....bitch &&& im sorta kinda startin to get mad at him cuz ii think he's manipulative....so ii break and send him a tit pix and it has not been sittin well wit me all this time iim still sad about how he managed to negate all ma feelings and reduce me to sex....yea not too happy wit that but me && him pokin is never going happen

omq VOXXXXX hav ii realli been that neglectful???? ii 4got to inform uu chumps that as of November 5, 2008 we hav our 1st BLACK PRESIDENT:::::BARACK OBAMA:::::: shit man ii 4got to write bout that...yea ya qirl made history voted for the 1st black president it was a joyous occasion o man ii cant tell uu how elated ii felt man thas prolly why ii aint get around to writin nuffin cuz ii was to busy crying and carry'n on when ii heard the news on tv**::::well lemme recap that nite 4 ya:::****  um ii was talkin to that busta mike on da phone talkin bout nuffin in particular and ma mom was layin down in the living room and he tole me that barack was da prez and ii said ur lyin?!?!?!?!? then ii turned on da tv and saw 4 maself ii was like nucca ima have to call uu bac ii was shakin ma motha and everything lol it was a moment i'll neva 4get

sooooooo las nite hmmph!! lemme tell uu ii was up til 4am jux thinkin bout darryl yo ii swear ma mind was racing ii was jux playin out all these diff scenario's in ma mind about us rekindling wat we had and him calling me ii mean ii was tired as shyt and been in the bed since 2 and jux thinkin bout him kept me up all nite and ii knew dam well ii had to go bac to work 2day lls but yea ii was jux concocting mad shyt in ma head and thinking bout him....it was crazy thennnnn..... ii had this dream about q-tips new video gettin up and lauryn  hill was in it jus dancing and flexing wit him lol.....,hmmmmm....cud ii hav sum musical forsight lol but thas it nuffin much momz shud be cumin bac 2nite or 2mah morn...missed that chix hope she brought me sumfin bac.....and ii dnt eem think it was that important for me to mention but ii qav this dude ma number earlier in the week while ii was waitin for the bus and he hasnt called...as ii always say there's a statute of limitations on ma number and if uu dnt use it...its a done deal!! but chea man was an iight week had a lil fun and shyt me && crystal had a lil heart to heart bout her living here and everything...i mean its all qoinq work itself out mannnn it will.trust. gotta pay ma phone bill in these next couple days and stop playin ii cannot wait to get paid this fri mannnnn ima get ma hair done get sum boots prolly timbs and a pair of high heel boots and call it a day....and maybe sum more shirts and jeans im jux needin to fine sum black skinny jeans and ii noe old navy prolly got em

WHAT A KISS MEANS

*kiss on the stomach------"lets have sex"

*kiss on the forehead-------"forever you will be mine"

*kiss on the ear------"im horny"

*kiss on the cheek-----"we're friends"

*kiss on the hand------"ii adore uu"

*kiss on the neck-----"we belong together"

*kiss on the shoulder------"i want you"

*kiss on the lips------"ii want you OR ii love you"

WHAT GESTURES MEAN

*holding hands------"we can learn to love each other"

*slap on the butt---- "thats mine"

*playing with ear----"i cant live without you"

*holding on tight----"dont let go"

*looking into each other's eyes------"dont leave me"

*playing with hair on the head----"tell me you love me"

*arms around the waist----"i love you too much to let go"

*laughing while kissing-----"ii am completely comfortable with you"

FORBIDDEN

Sometimes i have these strong feelings that overwhelm me

We were the was that never was..Ones that couldnt love

You were forbidden to me and i was to you

Even when we were together these feelings were to true

Your eyes, your lips, or just the way you moved

The energy that we exerted only proved

A "sexual eruption", naw it was more than that

Deep kissing and good loving i know you was wanting that

Bound by our lifestyles we couldnt cross paths

There were bumps in our roads, that we just couldnt pass

I cant wonder about wat cuda been

I can only walk down the path and see if we meet again

You were angel in my eyes with some devilish ways

Some things that you showed me were the freakiest things

We cant say it but I know wat uu feel

Is it because this is forbidden or the feelings are real

welp ii spoke to soon cuz sumfin did pop off yesterday....so outta nowhere the ole muslim nigga ii chilled wit bac in the day called me outta da blue wantin to noe how ii been so ii let him cum over...meanwhile matt was takin crystal to the setting ,then they went to this reggae house party that ii sooooooooo  shuda been @~!!!!!!1 but yea so he dint annoy me as much as he did when we first chilled so ii thought maybe we could get along but ii made the mistake in telling him that fam was outta town and this nigga persistantly tried to coerse me into lettin him stay the nite which is a no no no matter how nice he was acting so anyhoo nite goes on and ii let this nigga have a  qo at it and it was SOOOOO WACK when we was thru ma mind was movin a mile a min tryna fiqure out how fast and nicely ii can get him to disperse lol cuz ii was too disgusted

***** :::lol wenever im havin a WTF moment im jux goin insert mone's face to get ma point across clearly:::****yo ii really thought he was bout to do sumfin ii mean he was meticulously lickin ma bac and ma butt and neck and spine and ii aint going lie it was feeling sooooo good ii had to regulate the shit outta ma breathing cuz ii was bout to hav an asthma attack!!! that shit was turning me on which was kinda funni cuz ii remember wen lamont used to do that iit aint turn me on half as much lol but yea everything lke every sexual encounter ive had was extremely dreadful and time wasting.ii cudnt eem fake like ii wanted him to be around after that so finally ii got him to leave and was like whew!!!!!!! plus that whole muslim thing would never sit rite wit me cuz while he was here ii let him borrow a towel so he could pray to allah which ii should repent for rite now.,.............................ok ii did so yea anyways then crystal came home an hr later she wasnt realli feelin where they was at so we chatted bout our nites then went to sleep at like 5 close to six sumthin in da morn and iii havent heard from muslim yet and ii dnt plan on contacting him it woulda never worked out ii jux needed sum sat nite entertainment but yea then arnell called me tonite asking can ii watch her lil fat mama lol ii liked her baby so ii tole her ii would but then iii gotta get and cash ma check tomorrow so ii can have the money to giv to sheen for the stuff ii got on hold at neiman marcus that ii gotta get by tues or weds but ii could really wait to get ma check on tues but im not tryna get tied up like that it'll prolly be better iif ii wait til tomorrow but yea that was the weekend yo.momz went outta town and shit ii get paid 50 for watchin lil baby so all well it end well ii quess ii was jux really tryna get to work early so that ii could have the rest of the day to maslef but yea ii mighta rained on crystal parade cuz ii tole ha she had to giv me bac that 15 ii gave matt for gas money to take her ass to capital heights to get her shit.....nufffin in life cum free lol everytime ii gotta cum outta pocket she will be paying me bac 

but yea so ma momz jux left to go to Va a bout an hr ago.crystal still here....lol aint bout to do shit prolly lol sittin rite in ma damn house watchin tv.so iii been thinkin bout how ii could get ridda dee lol ii swear ii dnt wan deal wit no niggas but..still thinkin bout that one soo fat head been talkin he like bum saying it in a jokin way but ii think there's a lil truth behind that..if there is ii gues thats kewl.it is a lil like wtf man ii aint had teh complex since skool..as far as being the overlooked one lol but wadeva it happens aint much to say so ima hit this up later if anything intersting ever happens in ma life

ma bad vox its been hella long since ii been up hea....well las tym we left off ii qave gray the kibosh for his childish ways....and ive kept up wit that...uh yea cortez so ii was waitin for the bus home sum time las week and he was there ii was tryna be inconspicuous but he spotted me anyway and to make a long story short ii tole him he aint have to call me no more...and he hasnt....but b4 that ii met this dude from new orleans on election day and ii would converse wit him on the phone.so cum to fine out he very narcissistic and selfish so ii out the kibosh on dat nigga too in the same week as cortez...actually the day after lol ii jux cudnt handle it and he used to talk to me like he aint have no sense in his head.but yea.

so crystal got kicked outta ha shack and is stayin wit us.....idk im all for helping the needy but........too much time spent around each other can lead me to choking her lol ii mean ii kinda felt that way when we wrkd together no disrespect but ima only chile that dnt hav to worry bout no1 but herself so im just used to havin ma space....space that i have to share wit her...

ii mean its all gud maybe bein ova here will knock sum sense into he and she can stop bouncing around and thing about the whole spectrum of things b4 jumpin into sumthin ii mean c'mon ii knew that wasnt going last long.specially wit ha not wrkn....so anyhoo matt took us to ha ole spot to get ha clothes yesterday lol and ha ex had the nerve to wan hug me nigga uu dropped her off on ma doorstep wit an empty promise to let her cum bac that uu knew uu wasnt going keep yeaaaaa rite.then went to denny's afterwards...matt's kool pplz ii jux qotta watch maself round him cuz he is committed and ii dnt plan on qettin in the middle of that...um ii think thas all to update o yea other than ma mother's boo came to visit then we found out he was keeping time with otha chix so ii think he out the picture now

well didnt go on ma date on sunday cuz starr decided she wanted to go to 6 service and dee had to be at work at 4 so we said we'd try 4 this sunday aint much happening but lemme tell uu shawty downstairs tried to get salty wit me cuz ii had to run to silver spring the other day to pic up ma chec and he was a lil tight that ii aint call  him when ii got in.....hmmm iim starting to wonder when did ii get ties to this nigga cuz he aint doin shit 4 me so ii see no reason to tell him of my comings and goings!! && 4 real  not that ii need to explain maself but that day ii had a headache that lasted from 6 service to the next afternoon.so ii really wasnt tryna be bothered but yea he text em this mornin and ii aint answer fuck that nucca...0o0 yea their is something worth talkin bout ii cut gray loose yesterday cuz that nigga is too much of  a headache!! ii swear every convo ii have with him is a fight to the  death and he was a kewl friend bac in skool but he too much now so ii was like delete ma number act like uu neva knew me cuz uu not worth it 4 real he is so damn antagonizing and he cant see it he steadily tryna tell me how grown up he is but still acting so childish...now ii got the nerve to be feeling bad lol but 4 real ii cudnt handle that nigga he was so childish and argumentative and  took everything to heart evry convo ii had to spend time explaining to him that ii meant nuffin by wat ii said and then he started disrespecting me yesterday calling me a nigga and shit and then ii tried to send him bac his lil forward and he going respond why the fuck would uu send me that...sorry ii dont stand 4 disrespect o yea yesterday was the day ii went on da field trip with ma babiez it  was quite fun we went to the museum of natural history had a ball